Dear God

Dear God, I know you can hear me I’ve been told you’re always there. Yet right now, here in this moment, I don’t feel you at all.

Do you even care?

Do you hear your people cry out?
Do you like how we suffer each day?
God, you’re just up there watching us
Drinking, killing, and slitting our wrists,
Hoping that something would finally take all this pain away

I can’t take it God.
This life, it’s too heavy to bear.
All that I am is a broken man here,
With a tattered old book and a bunch of angry prayers

God I need you to respond – Yeah
I know that’s what we all say.
But if you’re truly a good father like it says in your word. Could you please speak to me today somehow, in your own special way?

Dear Son, you are loved, I wanted to begin with that. Everything else that you will hear
From here on out will point you back, to that undeniable fact

Of course I am here, I’ve always been right by your side.                                        Even in those trials and dark chapters, you strive to hide.                                          In every moment, Buddy, I never left.                                                                    All those prayers you thought that just hit the ceiling,

I heard every last one of them, and just like you I wept

Yes I know all about the pain, the brokenness, the sin,
That’s down there on the earth.
Just like you said, I watch it everyday.
But here’s the thing it gets better from here on out, not worse.

You say you can’t take this life anymore.
Good, that’s because I‘ve called you into something new.
I see your brokenness, your tattered Bible, and angry prayers.

I actually don’t ignore you.

So please, Son, let’s talk.
Open up your heart and lay it out on the table.
I’ve always been here listening every minute of every day.
Surprisingly enough, I always respond to those who are willing and able.

Dear God, I can’t say I’m not shocked.
After years of being on my knees.
And worshipping through the night.
What changed to make you respond to me tonight?

Did I make you mad or ticked off?
Did you just have a change of heart?
But now that I do have your attention.
Do you have any wisdom in which you are willing to part?

With everything that’s happening down here in the world you made,                       Could you at least lend a hand to me?     

And guide me through this treacherous maze?

God, you’ve been so quiet all this time.
Why have you been hiding from me?
Have you been too busy, have you been elsewhere?
Or is it just my sin that decimates such amazing intimacy?

I don’t want to take this moment for granted.
I’m actually hearing you speak; it feels face-to-face.
So whatever I need to hear please don’t hold anything back. Prophesy over me here in this space.

Dear Son, I won’t always talk to you this way.
But if you truly trusted me, you could look around,
See all that I do, and know in your heart.
That not everything in this life you will ever fully understand.

I’ve never changed or altered over the ages.
As the Alpha and Omega, you’ve been known and marked as mine,                       Please know this, There’s nothing that you could ever do
That could make me think you were ever a waste of my time

I’ve given you three things that will guide you through strife.                                    My word forever true, my Spirit like the wind                                                        And constant communication with me

A father, who dearly loves you so much more than His own son’s life

I can guarantee you I am not quiet.
Although that’s how my children hear me most days.
With all the noise and distractions scattered in your life, I’ll say this,
As the Lord, I can and do communicate with you in so many different ways.

If you want wisdom listen closely son.
Please Be Still, and let me be God.
Abide in me, and our desires will begin to align. And you will begin to hear my voice at all times

Dear God, I do trust you.
I know that you are good.
You give blessings and wisdom forevermore. Just as a perfect and heavenly father should.

Thank you for reminding me that I am known and loved.
Somedays as I walk around on this earth.
I’m sure we both know,
That the enemy and his demons crush my heart and self-worth

But you call me your son.
You say that I am forgiven and freed – and
Any of the lies and fiery darts that come my way throughout the day, will forever be redeemed.

I will continue to have these questions for all three of you. Of this I am certain.
I now know you will all answer me as long as I am open.
I will reach out next to The Son

I think we both know that this conversation has only just begun

Thank you for this time Father God, I don’t take this lightly. Don’t let me forget this gift that you’ve blessed me with tonight. My prayer in this moment, I hope you would not let it go amiss. Would you please go and talk with all your children just like this?

Dear Son, before you go please hear my heart.
This was not a one-night stand.
Don’t let this become a distant thought.
Our intimate relationship will never easily come undone or apart.

I urge you to talk with the Spirit and Son.

They both are at your door even now.
Will you let them in?
As soon as you do I’m sure they’ll surprise you,
Please allow the radical heart surgery they provide to begin.

Continue to ask all these questions.
How else will you ever learn?
Your path is a narrow one,
With many twists and insanely difficult turns.

Lean on me each day you cannot go at it alone. Dependence on me includes scary ingredients. Surrender and taking up your cross daily,
Are not your everyday common commitments

We will speak soon of this I am sure
When you live by faith and not by sight as my children do You will live a fuller and more radical life compared to some
As for talking to my children this way. 

Son.

I always have ever since time has begun.